Lately I have found myself struggling with what I believe to
be one of the hardest things to accept as a Christian: You are here to fulfill
GOD’S will for your life, not your OWN will for your life. I currently have
this verse taped to my computer at work to help remind me of this daily: I
desire to do Your will, my God; your law is within my heart. : Psalm 40:8
Sometimes I feel like I am in such a rush to get through
this life. And during that hustle-bustle, I lose sight of the beauty God has
placed before me. No matter what sort of blessings I keep receiving from Him,
I’m already looking into what I “want” next. I don’t know about you, but I
catch myself getting so caught up in society and secular life, that I don’t
even realize that it’s taunting with my focus. Then before I know it, I’m
desiring so many “things” that I think I am in control of fulfilling for
myself. Let me tell ya folks, that leads you to nothing but disappointment…
after disappointment.
We are here to serve our King. Ephesians 2:10 says: For we
are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared
in advance for us to do.: That’s what we should be focused on- not what can I
do for myself today, but what can I do to serve my God today?
Romans 8:28 says: And we know in all things God works for
the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.:
I have faith in that. He doesn’t necessarily work to make us happy, or work to
grant our wishes…he works to fulfill His purpose. Sometimes I get discouraged
and lose focus because I have a hard time accepting what I want may not be what
God wants, but I am learning to truly trust in Him because he is all-knowing;
He is omnipotent. Even though I don’t like to admit it… (I kid, I kid :))… God
does know a heck of a lot more than I do. I trust in that. Sometimes when I am
struggling with trusting God or when I don’t understand why what I want isn’t in
His will for me, I look backwards. Kind of odd, right? But when I look back
over the last few years in which my life was turned over to Christ, I am literally
awe-struck when it comes to where God has directed my path. I will tell you
that all the blessings I have been given over the past few years have been
life-saving. God works through
circumstances, He works through others and he works in ways we will never know.
I, without a doubt, would not be where I am in life without the love I receive from
God on a daily basis that was given through His Son, Jesus Christ. Trust Him. Seek
Him. Love Him. Receive His mercy and love. Live to fulfill His will for you. When
I feel myself starting to let go of that and wanting take the wheel, I try to
remember that His will for us is much more beautiful than the will we’d seek
for ourselves. God can see that; we cannot. Believe that.
